Daddy's Girl

A small poetic piece showing just a glimpse of a few things God has done and is doing in my life as He writes His amazing story through me.

I wandered through the days - mornings throughout nights - looking. Searching. Hoping. To find the one. Someone. A person I could call daddy. I had no father - no daddy for me - no knee to climb up upon. No arms to hold me safe and tight. I felt empty, lost, broken, sad, alone.

He took my hand, pulled me up, and we danced in the wildflowers.

He made me whole. He saw no wrongs. He loves me for me. My creator - my Father. I found my Daddy, but truly know He first found me.

I let go. Darkness came. I fell. My mind lost its stability. I believed the lies. I would not eat. I wanted to disappear. Hunger. Loss. Body failing. I begged to disappear. I felt empty, lost, broken, sad, alone. Why couldn’t I just disappear?

I didn’t disappear. I let go - He did not. Daddy’s don’t let go.

He took my hand, pulled me up, and we danced in the wildflowers.

He made me whole. He saw no wrongs. He loves me for me. My creator - my Father. I found my Daddy, but truly know He first found me.

I let go. Darkness came. I fell. My mind lost its stability. I believed the lies. I was attacked. Skin shredded. Ripped. Torn. Blood. Stitches. Needles. I wanted to disappear. I begged to disappear. I felt empty, lost, broken, sad, alone. Why couldn't I just disappear?

I didn’t disappear. I let go - He did not. Daddy’s don’t let go.

He took my hand, pulled me up, and we danced in the wildflowers.

He made me whole. He saw no wrongs. He loves me for me. My creator - my Father. I found my Daddy, but truly know He first found me.

I let go. Darkness came. I fell. My mind lost its stability. I believed the lies. Metal screeching. Icy glass. Blood dripping. Cars entangled. Fear. No more driving. I wanted to disappear. I begged to disappear. I felt empty, lost, broken, sad, alone. Why couldn’t I just disappear?

I didn’t disappear. I let go - He did not. Daddy’s don’t let go.

He took my hand, pulled me up, and we danced in the wildflowers.

He made me whole. He saw no wrongs. He loves me for me. My creator - my Father. I found my Daddy, but truly know He first found me.

I let go. Darkness came. I fell. My mind lost its stability. I believed the lies. I was robbed. Taken. Touched. I gave no permission. It will be taken anyway so I freely gave it away. Anyone who looked or wanted could have it. I had no care. My body was no longer my own. I wanted to disappear. I begged to disappear. I felt empty, lost, broken, sad, alone. Why couldn’t I just disappear?

I didn’t disappear. I let go - He did not. Daddy’s don’t let go.

He took my hand, pulled me up, and we danced in the wildflowers.

He made me whole. He saw no wrongs. He loves me for me. My creator - my Father. I found my Daddy, but truly know He first found me.

I let go. Darkness came. I fell. My mind lost its stability. I believed the lies. I couldn’t crawl out of the darkness. What’s the point? No one would want me now. Lost, broken, used, ripped, desperate, tossed out, trash, life is pointless - useless. I swallowed the pills and drank the tonic. I wanted to disappear. I begged to disappear. I felt empty, lost, broken, sad, alone. Why couldn’t I just disappear?

I didn’t disappear. I let go - He did not. Daddy’s don’t let go.

He took my hand, pulled me up, and we danced in the wildflowers.

He made me whole. He saw no wrongs. He loves me for me. My creator - my Father. I found my Daddy, but truly know He first found me.

He did not ever let go. Daddy knows. His knee is strong and His arms hold me tight. I felt joy, healing, peace, love, forgiveness, mercy, compassion, stability, safety… He’s a good, good Father. I will never let go of Him again.

Attacks still come, darkness still tries to invade. I do not fall. My Father’s arms are holding me tight. His heartbeat is in my every breath. The enemy comes and tries to break me, but I stand tall. I’m Daddy’s girl now.

I know the reality of who my Daddy is. I learned. The enemy’s lies no longer work. I’m the daughter of my Father. Because He is strong, I am strong. Because He is merciful, I am merciful. Because He is forgiving, I am forgiven. Because He is joyful, I am joyful. Because He is loving, I am loved. Because He is loyal, I am loyal. Because He is faithful, I am faithful. Because He’s the healer, I am healed. Because He is whole, I am made whole. Because He is my Father, I may fumble and stumble, but I will never fall. Not any more.

I climbed onto Daddy’s knee and He’s got me tightly in His arms. I am Daddy’s girl for all eternity.